Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I'm Still Here

I'm not so in to blogging lately. You know how that goes. Sometimes you have lots to say and sometimes you just don't.

Nothing too exciting going on with me lately. Haleigh is out of school and two days a week it is just the two of us until her parents come home from work. We've had fun so far.

Yesterday the tide was way out and we donned our rubber boots and beached combed. We found huge star fish and what maybe was jelly fish and big crabs and crab parts and big sheets of green slimy sea weed.

Also I've been making muffins. I'm glad this family shares my love of muffins. Today we have Raspberry Lemon muffins and Orange muffins.

In a few weeks Amy and Haleigh will leave for their visit to Georgia. They'll be gone for two weeks. Man will I miss them.

All is well. I am not missing those hot days in Georgia. I still have days when I just want to cry and cry and Jonathan's birthday is Sunday. For a year I've not allowed my brain to concentrate on the moment when that trigger was pulled. Lately that's what I tend to go to. I worry that he felt it and hurt, I worry that he regretted it the moment he did it. I try to stay away from those thoughts but it occurred to me that maybe I need to think it all through to be able to move forward but it hurts too badly.

ANYHOW......enough of that. My life is full of laughter and sunshine and salt water and ocean smells and is filled with love from the people I live with. WHO could ask for anything more? I do wish to find a friend though, someone my age, another woman to talk to. Guess I have to get out in to the world for that to happen huh? ALL in good time.

Hope you are all well.


Memaw's memories said...

Beach combing sounds like tons of fun. Are the crabs edible or the small ones? Did you bring anything home?

You are building such great memories for Haleigh. She will always remember the time she is spending with you now.

Mary Timme said...

The saddest thing of all, I think, is dealing with death in someone we love. For our daughter, I just asked that she live beyond 21 and wasn't found in pieces in a dumpster. She has, but is often lost to me as though she were dead. In fact most of the time that is true. My heart aches for you! Hugs and love.

turquoise cro said...

O! I hope YOU find that friend! Keep going to the ocean, maybe she will be looking for YOU!

Aisling said...

I wish I lived close by, so I could be that friend! It would be hard to make friends in a new city. Some one out there is going to be lucky when they encounter you and get to know you and your wonderful spirit.


PS, I can access your blog again which is wonderful. It was getting very frustrating!

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Thanks everyone and thanks Aisling, you are so sweet and I'm so glad you can get back on!