Friday, July 31, 2009

I'm Alive and Well

Hi there. My blogger friend Marge from Road Sage was worried about me and asked me to let everyone know I'm ok. I am ok.

Since Haleigh's been out of school I keep very busy. And I'm a little tired of blogging, it is true. I've seen bloggers do that and delete their blogs and that is that but I won't do that as this blog records my life through thick and thin for the last few years and I know myself well enough to know I'll be back to it soon. SO don't give up on me.

What is happening with me is just what I hoped would happen. I am beginning to gain a little confidence in myself again. When life beats you up a bit, you get a little unsure of yourself and everything and everyone around you.

Also I lost my passion for life for a while there. Still that's not all back but I do see hope for that to return.

I'm healing and I am living with a family where we all love each other very much and life is good.

So Marge, I am ok. I am better than ok, I am just doing what I want, when I want, where I want. I've never been able to do that!

I am healing and growing and will soon be ready to go back into the world because I have to work, and I want to as well.

I am still reading my favorite blogs.

So, there you have it.

I'll be back,



P.S. I'm back to making jewelry and I'm posting some of the pieces so far. I've some ideas on selling it so stay tuned!

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

The Sound of Silence

This is the first morning I've awaken in nearly four months not hearing the footsteps and voice of a certain little girl. Haleigh and her mom left for their Georgia vacation last night and are safely there now as I type. SO it is just Matthew and me for the next two weeks. He will be working and so mostly it is just me on my own, with my little dog Sweetie of course. I have lots to keep me busy today. I've got dishes to do and laundry and I need to go to the grocery store so today will fly by. After that , we'll see.
It is a time for some self reflection and time to think about what I want to do in the future. After all, I can't pretend to be an eight year old forever. But for now it sure is fun.
Hope you all have a good week,

Monday, July 06, 2009

Hello There

I have to admit that I've fallen victim to Facebook and in doing so my blog suffers. Although I don't post so much there, it is easy to keep up with my family and friends there and I always have a Scrabble game going and I play a couple of other games there that takes up time that I probably used to use on my blog. Also it is easy to just put a short status on the Facebook page instead of writing a post on the blog. But tis the way of the world I guess, it is constantly changing and we are always moving on to something different.
I'm not going to give up the blog just yet but recently my heart has just not been into it and you know how that goes.
Tomorrow Haleigh and Amy leave for their two week vacation to Georgia. I am going to so miss them. Haleigh has become my shadow since school has let out. Yesterday she and I beached combed and found lots of good stuff to look at and to bring back home with us. AND then she painted my nails. Florescent green with hot pink tips and a pink polka dot on each one!

Too funny. She is so much fun. And for now I'm soaking up all the time I can get because in a few years she won't have too much time for me I know.
AND my biggest best news is that in a little over a week my friend Tammy that I've not met in person is coming to visit family here in my town and she and I will get to spend time together and I am so so so excited! I can't wait. Tammy has been my inspiration and I met her here when I needed her the most. She was with me through the chemo and the grieving. Once she had my phone number she'd call me just when I was needing to hear from someone. She made me know how strong I was, she shared her own thoughts and feelings with me, she was just there for me when other people weren't. And so meeting her is going to be so wonderful because at last I can give her that hug I've been wanting to for a year now!

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Happy July 4th!

I have a thing for old pick up trucks so I snapped this one today while on the Suquamish Indian Reservation.

As an observer of people and someone who has a love for Native American culture I treasure anytime I get to go to a reservation. There is a calmness, a carefree attitude there yet the respect for all living things shines through.

We visited this place, Rain Bear Studio

The lady that owns the place was very colorful and interesting. She was not Native American but Canadian. And her name was Rainey Daze, I kid you not! I enjoyed visiting her studio and promised to come back and visit again when I get back into making jewelry again.
I had a good day today. I hope you did too!