Sunday, November 02, 2008

My Experience

Well, that life port, the one that gave me lots of trouble from the start was to come out on Thursday. I was just so relieved to be able to get it out, I could have never dreamed that morning when I left home at six thirty what my next few days would be like.
The port came out but there was a part of it, a big chunk of it missing. So when the surgeon goes back in to find the rest of it, he couldn't find it. After an xray there it was in the heart chamber. Things got interesting and scary after that. I was not allowed to hardly move, I was rushed by ambulance to a bigger hospital about an hour away. They assured me that this had to be done sometimes and that the surgeon there had done it lots of times, making a lasso of sorts of some kind of tool and "fishing it out". Well, this is me we are talking about and it wasn't that easy. After three and a half hours in a freezing operating room on a skinny little table, they finally got it out. Just before they had to open my chest up and take it out. I was awake the whole time, I'm not sure why and it was the most horrible experience I've ever had in my life but I'm getting past it and going on and don't want to think about it much anymore. I am grateful they got it out, it was a very serious deal and the important thing is I survived thank goodness and lived to tell the story.
After I was released from the hospital and went to WALGREENS to have scrips filled my sweet nurse's voice that had stayed with me while I was still at the hospital here came up behind me and although I wouldn't have recognized her face, I'll never forget her voice. She hugged me and introduced me to her husband like this, "This is my patient I was telling you about yesterday honey." I never ever wanted to be a "patient that someone went home and told her husband about" but I was that day. I wish I could have taken her with me to the bigger hospital. At that place the nurses weren't nearly as caring and assuring as she had been to me.
And so that is it in a nutshell, there was a lot more to it but I'll spare you the gory details. I don't know why the thing came apart inside of me, I'm just glad it is out of me, ALL of it. And I thank God I am ok and survived it. CAN you believe this? It just goes on and on and on.
But, forward we go one more time.


Aisling said...

Oh my goodness, Robbin. What a terrible ordeal. I'm so thankful you came through it well.

love and hugs,

PS I loved the post about your granddaughter over at Amy's blog. What a doll!

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Thanks Aisling, I'm glad too. Now maybe things will turn around.

Sage said...

Enough of this already! You are commanded to shape up, get healthy, and put this whole mess behind you for good. You hear?

Oh, what a scary ordeal that must have been! I knew something was wrong when we heard nothing for days. Know that I was thinking about you and praying for you. And now that you're home and hopefully doing better, please continue on that journey for awhile, okay?

So glad to hear you are alright!

Anonymous said...

oh my goodness!!! That sounds perfectly nightmarish. You are so strong now. Just think how far you've come since the start of all this. It has to look up from here. I am so thankful you are ok. Even though I'm not blogging anymore, you can call or email me ANYTIME! I still read all your posts from bloglines. Thinking of you sweetie!!!

Love, Chellie

linda said...

NO, I cannot believe this has been one problem after another for you, of all people! You are done now and yes, put it behind you as best you to someone if you can't so you can...hear that? :)

I see you going forward from here on out, robbin, I just know it's going to get better from now on. But I will keep sending you blessings just in case you have any more "little" setbacks...sheesh! That whole ordeal sounds absolutely terrifying and it's crazy you had to be AWAKE for it??? Ohwell, I don't know, at least it's over now, right? right!

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

I hear that Marge, I'm taking your orders right now! Thanks for your prayers, and I believe too I'm on the other side of this.

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Hi Michelle, thanks for still being around and letting me know, I miss you. Can you believe this? Thanks for your caring and I hope you are ok. Love you bunches and I will email me and I still have your phone nuumber.

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Hey Linda, I know it! It is like a nightmare I can't get out of. But yes, it is behind me and upward from here on out. Thanks for your blessings.

Me Maw said...

Holy Cow Robbin!! Ok you win, that tops any of my cancer freakish stories! LOL!

So happy you are ok now and they did not have to, as we say in the medical field, "crack your chest" and do open heart surgery.

Blessings, peace, and all good, my weary warrior friend.


Robbin with 2 B's! said...

LOL, Me Maw, ok, I win the prize. I too am glad no chest cracking went on. So, blessings I have even though it seems like I don't, I do, and I know this to be true.

MrsClare08 said...

Good grief Robbin! I'm SO SO glad you're OK and came through that horrible ordeal! What a mess! Stay strong! Get healthy! Keep writing! Praying for you everyday!