Thursday, May 08, 2008

A Block in the Road

Life is full of experiences. Some are wonderful, some not so much. Facing the harder situations is what shapes us, it is what makes us stronger. We all travel different roads but the trip through life is really the same for all of us. Things can be going along great and then all of a sudden there is a big BLOCK right in the way. One can sit and cry and not try to even move forward, or you can realize that if you think about it, there is a way to get around it, you just have to work at it. It may cause your plans to be delayed but if you're lucky you'll learn a few lessons in the stuggle and when you finally get past it you can look back and know you made it. And if think about it, you know that other people have traveled the same road and have faced bigger blocks and with courage and determination they've gone on past.
I knew before I went in for my surgery that there was a good chance there was cancer. There was a biopsy taken that came back not quite looking right. I could only hope that it was just a few cells and that they had not spread outside of the uterus.
I haven't mentioned this on my blog as it was very personal and I was thinking really positively and was not dwelling on it. In my heart I knew though, I think. I did have endometrial cancer that had traveled 2/3 into the wall of the uterous. It is assumed all the cancer was removed with the hysterectomy but because it had began its journey to the cervix I am going to have to have 26 radiation treatments. As you can imagine, I really hated to hear that.
But I've come to terms with it, I am strong and healthy, I can handle it. And because the treatments will be five days a week for about six weeks I didn't really think I could keep that to myself and that's really what my blog is all about. My daily life.
So, you'll probably be hearing a lot about how I deal with this block in the road. I feel very lucky I went to the Dr. when I did and I see it as a reminder that I don't need to waste anymore time not living each day to the fullest and not living where I know I really want to live. You'll hear a lot more on that one too.
So, buckle up, this may be a bumpy ride at times but it is my intentions to deal with it positively and with as much humor as I can find.
Love to all,
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Suzie said...

I'm sorry to hear your news.... I know what it is like when you hear the words cancer. My first was in Feb 2003, then my brain tumor in 2004. Then again this past Nov thinking I was cancer free I had a recurrence. My oncologist not giving me much hope to live out the year then 4 days later changed her mind! Any time you hear those words... it is a shock.

I will be praying for you.

I'll send you a pm with my email addy.


Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Thank you Suzie, I've read about your journey. I don't think it works if you try to email me from the email address here, but my email is and yes, email me anytime.

Memaw's memories said...

What can I say!! I knew this was very serious when you didn't discuss it. We will all be rooting for you to make it through this rough patch. The big C word isn't as horrific as it used to be, but I'm sure you are still worried. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

And remember, you can tell us anything. We are your friends and will help all we can.

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Hi Shirley, I'll remember that, lol. THanks for much for your encouragement, I'll be fine. If this is my road, I'm willing to take it in good spirit. Just remind me of that when I'm in the middle of those treatments, will ya?

Aisling said...

Robbin, Now I really wish I could come by and give you that big hug. I'm sending one your way by this electronic means. I know you will deal with this head on, with courage and humor, but you have my number if you need to call and "whine" about it or anything at all... anything at all.

love and hugs,

Chellie said...

I am always here and you and I will talk as much as we need to for the both of us!! Love you!

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Aisling, I got that electronic hug and I appreciate it a bunch! Love ya!
And Chellie, you betcha. You guys don't know how much strength you give me.
Sisters of my heart you both are. I don't have sisters you know. Now I do.