Wednesday, April 09, 2008
"Hang on Sloopy"
It's my day off again and I am sick. If there was a doubt in my mind that I need this up coming surgery (and there is not) I am 100% certain this is what I have to do. I only have 12 days to go and I am so ready to do this and get it over with so I can move on.
Yesterday I worked and I pushed and asked a little too much of my body. I'm sorry body. I promise not to do that again. I'll listen next time.
I had to meet with my boss yesterday for my yearly review and it went well. I got a raise and the review was very good. She at times I think can be a little nit picky but yesterday her evaluation of my "strengths & opportunities" seemed to me fair and I was happy.
And so today I will lay low and let my body re coop. And I'll try not to worry about everything I need to be doing. My house is a wreck, I need to get it cleaned and ready for me to come back to after my surgery and for my son to come. I am running out of time to do anything but I've got faith I'll get it done. I am not going to stress about it today.
I am trying to stay positive but when I am down and not feeling good, I tend to start feeling sorry for myself, which makes me feel even worse. A vicious cycle you see.
Anyhow................that's my sad saga for today. Things will get better for me, this I know and until then I just have to hang on. So I'm hanging on.............and looking forward to better days.