His Journey Continues

As a parent when you are raising your children, all you really want is to prepare the child to survive. You hope along with the ability to survive, they will find much happiness. You hope you've given them the tools to handle life's ups and downs. If you can accomplish anything close to this, you feel as if maybe you've done your job.
I wonder if I'm allowed to have a do over? Can my child, after being out in the world for more than ten years come back home, wipe his slate clean and let me try again? Of course I know the answer to this. He is not a child anymore. He's a grown man.
No matter how grown a child is, he is still your child and so he will come back home. He'll lick his wounds, I'll listen to him as he tells me how unfair life is to him and I'll offer whatever words of comfort I can. And all I can hope is he'll move forward and realize you can't just blame life for all that is wrong. I thought he had started this journey a while back, but he took a detour. Perhaps he is ready to continue now, and I hope I can help just by being here. Maybe now, at last he can grow up.

Vacation Memory

A Beautiful Day,
A Sweet Little Girl,
just the two of us.
And Pink Cupcakes.
It was a perfect day!

Native American Wisdom

"Listen with courtesy
to what others say, even if you feel
that what they are saying is worthless.
Listen with your heart."

Just another day

Not much to say today, not in the mood to write. I am in the mood to make jewelry and I have been. I've got new stuff to work with and that always gets me going. I'll scan some soon and share.
Work was pretty uneventful and that's a good thing.
I'm going to bed early I think, at least early for me. Sweet Dreams.

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."
Alan Cohen

I Wonder....

1930-2007

...if they are having a Luau in Heaven today.

Scientist say (according to Womans World Magazine) that things we think will make us happy may not, that actually sometimes it's the opposite that does. For example if you think you'd be happier if you could be younger again, could be just the opposite. Research says that actually people become happier as they get into their 50s, 60s, & 70s. Older people seem to have a brighter picture of the future and a better ability to downplay the negative because they've had more experiences which they've survived and so they've learned to not sweat the small stuff. Ummm, alrighty then.

Vacation Memory

My daughter-in-law decided for Easter she was going to make an Apple Pie, from scratch no less. I listened to her and remembered the one and only time I decided to make a pie crust from scratch. It was not pretty but then I'm not much of a cook, don't really like to do it. And so early on Easter morning she began and it was perfect, in looks and taste. And I'm proud of her!

A Native American Wisdom

Listen to and follow the guidance given to your heart. Expect guidance to come in many forms; in prayer, in dreams, in times of quiet solitude, and in the words and deeds of wise Elders and friends.

Off to Work I Go!

Back to the real world today. We have inventory this weekend and I have a meeting to get ready for that we are having in a few weeks. Lots to keep me busy for a while.

My mother was busy all day yesterday so I didn't get to see her, I wanted to share the pictures of my vacation with her and tell her all about what we did but she is not really interested. The truth is, if it doesn't involve her, she really is not interested. But, OH well, that is just her and nothing much I can do about it. She doesn't "get" me and I guess I don't get her either.

I'm still a little off time wise. You wouldn't think three hours would make that much of a difference but it does on this end. I didn't really sleep much at all last night. It was four o'clock before I slept at all.

You know how I've been worried about my birthday and that big scary number coming up? Well, it is approaching fast. It was funny at some point I mentioned to my granddaughter that she had to go easy on me because I was getting "old" and she said, "You're not old Grandma!" Yep, like I said, sometimes a six year old really does know best.

Anyhow.......back to work I go. I'm trying to get into the mood but it ain't happening.

My body may be here in Georgia but my heart is still in Washington. I keep looking at the time and converting it back three hours and I know where they are and what they are doing. Swim Lessons tonight, a trip to McDonald's. Such a battle this heart of mine and head have going. Such a battle that my brain hurts and my heart aches. Such a battle that I'm hoping for a sign, something to convince me to follow my heart, and it will come if I watch closely enough. I hope it comes soon.

Vacation Memories

"GRANDMA, LOOK! Take a picture!"

I'm busy in the kitchen and without looking I say, "Haleigh I can't right now, Grandma is busy."

And then I look. "OK, you're right, we need a picture, hold on!"

Sometimes a six year old DOES know best!

Such a Good Day

Today I got to see a Gray Whale in the ocean. It was amazing.
We also went into the city of Seattle to Pikes Market and we bought some cheeses we've never tried before and some fruits and we had that for our dinner. It was yummy. Today was a good day. Wish it didn't have to end.

Coming to the End

Haleigh and I aren't speaking of this out loud but in the back of our minds we know that my visit is coming to an end. It's always hard to leave her but the older she gets the harder it seems to get.

Today my son and DIL are off and we are planning to go into Seattle to the market. I love doing this. The weather has held up really well, it is cool today, (Ok, it's cold!) but still is a pretty day after the sun came out.

My visits always make me question myself and wonder why am I not living here with the people I feel the most comfortable with? There's a harmony I feel here, I feel better physically, I can BREATHE better, and I'm not talking about just breathing, I'm talking about Breathing, if you know what I mean.

Anyway, when I get back to my real world my thoughts settle down some and I get back into the same thing I was doing before I left for vacation. Who knows, maybe one day I'll come to my senses!

Quiet Time

When you're the grandmother of a six year old and if you see her maybe once a year, when you visit, your time is occupied. When she collapses at the end of the day, so do you. So...this morning I woke up at five o'clock. I've had coffee and computer time and enjoyed the quietness of the morning. I'm ahead of the game little girl, but now I'm waiting and waiting and wondering, "When are you going to wake up?" Today we must go to the park, take a walk, bead some new creations, play with the dolls, watch a movie, read a book, talk about very important things, and we'll do many of these things at the same time! Wake up Haleigh, I can't wait to start the day!

The Wait is Over

In four hours I will start my trip and I will be in the Great Pacific Northwest. I doubt that sleep will come to me, maybe a catnap, but not even that. We shall see.
I'm in really bad need of a vacation. I'm tired and I'm off kilter a little, not myself. And though a vacation won't solve my concerns and problems, it will give me a different view and that in itself can't hurt. So it is very timely I think.
I'm off balance, lost my direction, lost the peace and calm that I crave in my life. Not sure when it happened or how, or why, but that's where I stand at the moment. I AM A MESS!
And sooo....off I go into the wild blue yonder in search of me.

Rumor Confirmed!

Here's the proof!

I've just heard a rumor......

...that a certain little girl lost another tooth last night. I hope the Tooth Fairy was good to you. If she wasn't Grandma will have a talk with her when she gets there!

It Came!

The rain did come and I believe it has settled some of the yellow powder that has been a constant with us lately. For that I am grateful.
I had a pleasant day at work, I got my paperwork done and I had a lovely older couple who came in for glasses. I had a poor lady who called me in a panic thinking there was a contact still in her eye and she couldn't get it out. When she came in, it was not there but she left convinced it was. It wasn't.
And now I have one more day at work, and I'll be leaving early (and I mean early) Tuesday morning for my vacation.
My Cedar Chest may not get opened for the few people that visit me from time to time but I'll be back and I'm sure I'll have much to share.
Happy Sunday night to everyone.

Rain, Rain please come!

Funny, I'm about to leave for my trip in a few days to a place where it seems to rain all the time but here I am at home wishing for rain. Rain, you see might settle some of the pollen that is still plaguing me. I usually hate to complain too much about Mother Nature as she knows what she is doing I am sure of it. But a nice slow rain would be nice and I'd welcome it!
I'm also about to leave a place where the low for the nights have been in the 60's and going to where the lows are in the 30's. Have to keep that in mind when packing!
I have to work today but I have loads of end of the month stuff to do and so the day will pass fast, whether I have any customers or not.
And so, that is all I know for today. Just got to get through two more days and then off I go into the wild blue yonder! And I am READY!