Monday, January 19, 2009

THE Decision

All along since I'd decided to make my move I'd wanted to hold on to the connection with the company I work for. It made sense, there are stores sort of close by where I want to live. And Matthew and I wanted me to live in the town where they are, not an hour away or further. If I am moving to be with them, I want to be close by. There aren't any stores really that close and I'd spend a good bit of time commuting to and from work. Something about this move has not felt right.
Last week it hit me. Why am I holding on to this job? Of course I'll need a job but for now I need to be with the people I love much more. I need some time to regroup and to nourish my granddaughter, and I need to be nourished myself. And that is being and always has been offered to me on a silver platter. Pride has stood in my way. I didn't want to move into my son's house and depend on him to take care of me, it would be too much of a burden on him and my daughter in law. But guess what? This is what they want and this is what I need for now.
This decision brings me such peace I can't believe it. And to have a son who wants this for me feels me with such joy I can't begin to express it.
And so I think I'm going to let my job go for now. I will be offered Cobra and I can get a little part time job maybe to help pay for that. I am really pretty debt free except for my cell phone and car insurance and little things like that. I think I can make it work and take off at least six months to a year.
It sounds a little crazy to give up a job during these times but there comes a time when money is not the most important thing.
And so that is where I stand at the moment. Sometimes the answer is right in front of you even when you can't see it.


Memaw's memories said...

It's amazing how when the answer to our problems are right in front of us and we don't seem to see them. Is that what they mean by not seeing the forest for the trees.

Sometime things just have to settle down around our heart before we can accept and embrace them for what they are.

Go and enjoy that granddaughter. Make some of the most wonderful memories she can possibly have of you.

Me Maw said...

I have found that when someone wants to be a blessing to you...let them !

Sounds like a great plan.

Aisling said...

I think it sounds perfect, Robbin. I was hoping you could be with them at first, while you settle in. Good news!

Take care!

love and hugs,