All along since I'd decided to make my move I'd wanted to hold on to the connection with the company I work for. It made sense, there are stores sort of close by where I want to live. And Matthew and I wanted me to live in the town where they are, not an hour away or further. If I am moving to be with them, I want to be close by. There aren't any stores really that close and I'd spend a good bit of time commuting to and from work. Something about this move has not felt right.
Last week it hit me. Why am I holding on to this job? Of course I'll need a job but for now I need to be with the people I love much more. I need some time to regroup and to nourish my granddaughter, and I need to be nourished myself. And that is being and always has been offered to me on a silver platter. Pride has stood in my way. I didn't want to move into my son's house and depend on him to take care of me, it would be too much of a burden on him and my daughter in law. But guess what? This is what they want and this is what I need for now.
This decision brings me such peace I can't believe it. And to have a son who wants this for me feels me with such joy I can't begin to express it.
And so I think I'm going to let my job go for now. I will be offered Cobra and I can get a little part time job maybe to help pay for that. I am really pretty debt free except for my cell phone and car insurance and little things like that. I think I can make it work and take off at least six months to a year.
It sounds a little crazy to give up a job during these times but there comes a time when money is not the most important thing.
And so that is where I stand at the moment. Sometimes the answer is right in front of you even when you can't see it.