Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I'm Still Here

Ok, well, maybe all those sweet pictures did it, or maybe I forgot the dance steps of this Chemo thing. Sometimes, one step forward, two steps back, but yesterday was a bad day. I forget that you can't say "OH, I feel pretty good today, tomorrow will be even better!" Nope, not the way it works for me. But I got through it, I made it, that day is behind me and this morning, so far so good. I am very shaky, ready to jump out of my skin, but Xanax helps that. My head is a little clearer, but still I don't really feel like I'm living in the moment. It is hard to explain, just weird. I'm plagued with other things not so pleasant to talk about so I won't and my appetite just doesn't seem to exist, not even for brownies!
But I got through yesterday and the day before that and that's saying something!
I had to got get a blood test this morning for the blood thinner thing. My mom took me and I actually am not worn out, (ok, a little tired) but I'm thankful I didn't have to do it yesterday.
MY next and last treatment is this coming Tuesday. I think they have it figured out just how much they can give you until they kill you.
And so that's all I got today. I'll be glad for the day when I can post and not mention Cancer or Chemo, or feeling bad. And I thank all of you for always checking in on me and for offering your prayers.
Love,
Robbin

4 comments:

Sage said...

We, too, will be happy when you are feeling better and you can put this whole cancer thing behind you and get on with life. I continue to be amazed by your strength and your will to survive this.

My thought is that next Tuesday we should have a blog wide toast to Robbin, survivor of chemo, bravest of the brave, and dearest friend. You are so important to so many people and everyone is praying for you. I hope you feel the prayers.

Love and blesings,
Marge

Sage said...

"Blessings". My S doesn't work!

Me Maw said...

ditto and ditto to what Sage said.

I'm pouring up my toast right now!

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Ah, you guys! That will be awesome! I wish you lived close, we'd have a party for sure!