Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Seaching for Some Light


I have to go back for another blood test this morning. They can't get the blood thickkness right, it is now too thin. Wearing on my nerves a little. And this is the week the chemo works on my emotions. It's hard to look past it, even though I know I only have one more treatment, I don't know what will happen after that. I don't know so much and it plagues me.

Coming out of the fog a little, I search for some sunshine. And I know it is there, somewhere, but just hiding from me a bit for the moment.
Hope your day is a good one.

8 comments:

Jenn said...

"Fear not, for I am with thee, Be not dismayed for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." Isaiah 41:10

This is the verse I clung to during my extended illness a few years ago. Love in Christ, Jen

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linda said...

robbin, I wish things were not so up and down for you, it must be so frustrating to feel so out of control of your own body! I can slightly empathize as I feel like that much of the time with all the stuff my doctor wants me to do. Anyway, hoping you find some sunshine soon, the blood gets thicker and the docs can tell you what to expect now that you are coming to the end of this phase...as in, is there more?

wishing for you peace of mind.

Memaw's memories said...

I wish we, your blogger buddies, could be there to go with you and help encourage you through this process. I know, even though you have your mom close by and your son only a phone call away, you must feel quite alone.

I love the verse Jen put in her post because the most important person to have with you is God.

The chemo treatments will soon be over and hopefully forever be a distant memory. I just know you are going to make it through and have a long life as a survivor.

And just keep thinking that soon you will be able to move closer to that precious granddaughter. You will get to share so many good times with her.

turquoise cro said...

YOU are still in my prayers Robbin! I've been under the weather and my pc is soOOOOOOo slow I don't get online much now but just wanted to let YOU know I'm thinking of YOU!(((Robbin))))

Tammy said...

I know these are some of your darkest days. Know that you are in so many hearts and prayers. That we will create a light just for you.

Hang in there my dearest warrior!

Love you!

Brandi said...

I have a coworker (and friend) going through chemo as well. He is a wonderfully brave and strong person. I honor your journey. thanks for stopping by my blog so that we could 'meet'!!!

amy said...

I wish I could be there and just hold your hand. That is it. Maybe read a good book together or just chat. This distance between us makes it so hard, but the distance is only temporary. I am sending you happy happy thoughts!!!!