Sunday, August 17, 2008

Hello There

I'm just coming in to say hi and to thank everyone for their well wishes and concerns and prayers and thoughts. I've had a good week. It's been cool enough that I could enjoy sitting outside in the late afternoons.
I've played with my beads and gemstones a little and made a few pieces of jewelry. I've eaten well and slept well since most of the Chemo is out of my body for the moment.

I have had time to reflect and put into perspective a few things and to get geared up for my next treatments coming this week. And I am ready. This will be my third one and if the Doctor doesn't change his plan, this will put me half way done. I know this is just a small little part of my life that I have to get through. I've accepted that I am a different person for a lot of different reasons but I'm not sure who that person is yet and I only hope the lessons I learn through all of this will make me a better person, more compassionate and not so quick to judge others and not blind to trials others face daily.
I have reached deep deep down and found renewed strength and faith that will carry me through this no matter how hard it gets. And I have found the peace inside that I lost there for a minute. I've calmed my spirit and I'm ready now to get on with this.

AND...........look what showed back up! My red cap that belonged to Jonathan. That made me very happy.
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Aisling said...

Robbin, It is so nice to read a post from you today. I tried to comment earlier but something didn't work right. So, here I am, checking on you again. I'm glad you are doing well. I'm glad you found that red hat. I'm also glad you are finding perspective, in your contemplations during these "in between" days. It may seem that you are in a holding pattern, but you are also preparing yourself for the transition from one part of your life to another. And, most importantly, fighting and perservering as you move toward healing and renewal. I'm still praying for you, and thinking of you often.


Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Hi Aisling, I'm glad you got through. I tried to comment on yours and Linda's today and couldn't for some reason.
Keep praying, and thank you.

Mary said...

Aisling said it much better than I could so I'll just say ditto. The red hat just needed a short time to adjust, too. It will be with you to give you comfort in the days ahead. I picture a warm healing light around you and God's grace giving you comfort.

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Hi Mary, you said it just right too and I feel that peace sure, wrapped up in it.
I hope you have a good week to come.

Me Maw said...

March 1, 1990 I took my last chemo treatment. They sold Big Mac hamburgers in Russsia for the 1st time that day. I watched it on the news from my hospital bed. Silly connection, I know.

Cancer changed me. Thankfully, for the better. I see people, life and things in a whole different way. I've never been the same.

Congratulations on the half way mark.

Blessings, peace & all that is good, Memaw (From the "And It Came To Pass" blog).

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Thank you Memaw, I am so happy you beat this dreadful disease and thank you for sharing that with me. ANd thanks for those prayers. I'm going to come over sometime today and get to know you a little. Thanks for visiting me again.

Memaw's memories said...

I'm so glad you are back. I was worried about you. And I'm glad to see the cap has turned up.

Enjoy Jonathan's playful mood.

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Thanks Shirley, I'm ok. Dealing with the grief that hits me at times I least expect and the terrible chemo side effects got to me there for a little bit. But I made it through and his hat showed up at the best moment.