Today I have to deal with finishing up Jonathan's life at least the one he left here on this earth. It took a long time to get the death certificates and finally they came yesterday. This means I can now get his car in my name. After that I have to get a tag and temporary insurance and get it cleaned up and try and sell it.
That money goes to the funeral home.
I hope we can sell it. It's an older car, 1999 Grandam but in good condition and I hope it will sell fast, I can hardly bare to look at it much longer. He loved his car. I loaned him the money to get it a few years back (loaned meaning I knew I'd never get paid back and I didn't care but I pushed him to try for his on own since of worth but of course he didn't. He made two payments but then things got rough for him and then he'd avoid me because he felt guilty and then I'd call him and tell him it was ok. My poor Jonathan. How hard his struggle was here and how helpless he felt at the end and it breaks my heart to the core.
But, I got to get this taken care of which means facing the truth that he is really and truly gone.
Although I think he is messing with me! He had a Red Baseball Cap from one of the jobs he'd held down last summer and I'd been wearing it around here to cover my bald head, I liked it mostly because it was his. Although my hair is short short short and very thin, I'm shedding so I figured he got mad I was messing up his red hat and he's hid it from me, I can't find that hat anywhere!!! Maybe when I'm done shedding it will show back up!
And so that's my day today, and I'm feeling pretty good. Going to do this early so as to not get in that heat.
Good Day to all of you.