I wanted, needed really, to visit my son to see for myself how he was really doing since he'd left and went back to his wife. I know he's made the decision for now to not take meds for the depression that has plagued him for some time now and that worries me. I was afraid this happiness he feels now is only another manic episode filled with grandiose ideas and plans and a lot of big talk.
What I saw is a man who is finally being honest with himself, a man who has been through a journey of darkness and is emerging a better person, a stronger person and a much gentler person. So, if the last six months helped him though this and this is the results, it was definitely worth it. Having a relationship with me is a plus. Finally getting to know me for who I am instead of through someone else's eyes has certainly helped and I can't help but think this is a positive force for him. Time will tell if he can cope with the ups and downs of life. Time will tell if he can fight depression without meds. But for now all is well, and we'll make the most of it.
So, our weekend was great. He and I had the weekend alone. His wife had left to visit her parents for the weekend. We went to a Drive-In Theater, we walked the beach and we talked and talked and just enjoyed being with each other.
I'm off today and back to work tommorrow. Bummer! I'd rather be leaving this afternoon to visit my other son. I miss him, but that won't be until April.
And so, today I will do some chores around here and relax and get ready for a new week at work. I'm tired of working. Wish I didn't have to. But oh well, enough whining for now. Hope your weekend was a good one and your new week is starting off good.