Dreamin' on a Sunday Afternoon

One of the dreams I've tucked away in this cedar chest is my little cabin in the woods. I'm dreaming of it today. It will be tucked away so far in the woods that if you didn't know it was there, you'd never find it. It will have a room set up with a long table for all my beading stuff. In that room will be a big window with a view of the woods where I can watch the wildlife while I bead. The deer and rabbits and birds and raccoons will all stay near because they know they have nothing to fear from me. And it will have a wonderful front porch with rocking chairs, maybe a swing and a table where I can have my meals out there when the weather is good. It's a good dream and it's where I am today if anyone is looking for me.

I Hate Do Overs!

Ok, I should say "strongly dislike", that's what I used to insist my kids say when they used the word "hate". This particular do over concerns a beaded necklace, and not even one of which I made. My dear Mother volunteered me to restring a necklace for a lady she knows. According to her it was a treasured gift from somebody and it broke. Ok, when she first mentioned it I didn't think too much about it and then she presented it to me yesterday. Still together enough I could somewhat tell the design, it is a double strung deal! UGH! How I h...strongly dislike those ditties!
But, never being one to turn down a challenge, I woke up this morning with it on my mind. There are missing beads so the design had to be changed a little. But then I realized it would probably be too short without those beads. Lucky for her I had a few similar ones in my own stock. I was going to take a pic but my camera batteries are dead. It turned out well I think. One thing about this Do Over, I'll get paid for doing it, and money in IS always a good thing.

Early Morning Walk

Having coffee this morning, up early on my day off to go walking. Saturday is our long walk, not such a power walk as just a distance walk. The sun hasn't come up yet, though it is not too far from happening. I stayed up way too late reading Mary Higgins Clark. I don't usually read her but "Two Little Girls in Blue" sounded good and it is.
My walk will be filled with the sights and sounds of a new Spring and of my mother's voice telling of her doings, past and present and I just walk taking it all in and glad to be alive. My thoughts on what I need to do today and my up coming trip to see my kids.
My eldest on my mind heavy this morning and I hope all is well with him. Happy Saturday to you all, have a good weekend!

Three Wishes

Haleigh's 3 Wishes

1. I wish my Dad would like cats.

2. I wish my mom would never die.

3. I wish I were a cheerleader.

(Her Mom just emailed me saying this was a paper she brought home from school.)

I have a friend who loves Enya. His favorite is a song by the name of Flora's Secret but this is my favorite one.

Only Time

Who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
- only time
And who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
- only time

Who can say
why your heart sighs
as your love flies
- only time
And who can say
why your heart cries
when your love lies
- only time

Who can say
when the roads meet
that love might be
in your heart
And who can say
when the day sleeps
if the night keeps
all your heart

Night keeps all your heart

Who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
- only time
And who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
- only time

Who knows - only time
Who knows - only time

Lyrics: Roma Ryan

Happy Girl

Today was a good day all the way around. Someone brought me lunch, we had a wonderful sales day, nice customers, associates in a good mood, what more could I ask for? Oh yeah, it was payday to boot. And.......when I checked the mail I had a really special card from a really special person. SO...there you have it! Oh! I almost forgot, I'm off the weekend! Life is Good!

Special Sighting

My best friend Steph spotted a beautiful Luna Moth tonight (not this one). So in her honor I wrote her a Haiku.


In its haste to live;
Luna chose one special person
To reveal itself to.

A Poor Me Post

You ever have one of those days when you feel like you are apparently wearing that sign on your back that says "KICK ME!"? I wore that sign all day yesterday. Everyone I remotely tried to communicate with in anyway seemed to be wearing steel toed boots and they all had perfect aim! The good thing is that we never have to have a repeat performance of the day before (except for poor Bill Murray in Groundhog Day) and so there is hope today! Plus I'm peeking over my shoulder in the mirror before I leave for work to make sure that stupid sign is not there~!

Avon Calling

My best friend is selling Avon. I guess I've not looked at an Avon book in forever and boy! All I can say is this is not your mother's Avon catalog. They sell lots of stuff now.
Thinking of Avon brought back childhood memories that make me smile. Much to my mother's dismay, who is quite prissy, I was never a girly little girl. I loved to climb trees and play The Lone Ranger on my bike with the boys in the neighborhood but even I couldn't resist the Avon Lady. That was back in the day when she visited door to door. Our Avon Lady wore outfits of pastel colors, dressy outfits as if she were headed to church. She had high heel shoes to perfectly match everyone of those outfits. In the winter time they were suits, skirts and jackets. In Spring they were frilly dresses with lace and eyelet and all that girly stuff. And she smelled like blooming flowers. Her hair was blond but styled like that of "That Girl" which was a popular TV show at that time, and her name was Miss Gladys. She called me "suga" (a very southern way of saying sugar which kids were called sometimes) and she'd see me outside and say, "Suga, run tell Mama I'm here with her order." My mother would tell me to invite her in and she'd fix them both a glass of ice tea while Miss Gladys brought in her case and sat at the couch. She carefully opened that case and laid out some new products on the coffee table to show my mother and then she'd open this little case of sample lipsticks and let me pick out one. I loved the names of them and as the boys yelled outside wanting me to come back to play; for a little moment I got lost in the land of "Strawberry Creams, Pink Bouquets" & Perfect Plums." And I sat in Awe of Miss Gladys. I'd soon get bored with the grown-up talk and gossiping(which a big part of the Avon Ladie's visit) and I'd run to my room to hide the little lipstick sample in a special box and I'd head out to the beckoning of the other kids, but not before Miss Gladys said, "Bye Suga, you be sweet now." A little while later she'd leave and go to the next door.
Who knew a little Avon Book could cause all of that to surface from my soul. I wonder what else I've got buried in there.

The Phases of My Life

I believe we live our lives in "phases". Not everyone goes through the same phases but I still think that all lives have them. I think we live them out and then move on to the next one. I don't know for sure if we govern them or if it is our fate that holds the control, of course that is an age old question.
The transitional period between these phases can be hard but finally you move into the next place and discover new things, new challenges to face and overcome.
It is in the transitional period where I sit these days, and you know what I mean. You feel like your life is in limbo or you are in a rut. It feels like I'm on the edge of a mountain just waiting for fate to give me that final nudge, just enough to push me over into the next phase of my life.
Did I learn lessons from the previous phases to help me sail through this one? Will this be the hardest of all and am I up to it? My head tells me the time has come that this part of my life will include some hard things, things that come with age. Loss. I've been lucky so far that I've not lost many people in my life. My heart tells me that I will learn things about myself that perhaps I've not yet discovered.
At any rate, change is coming. Whether I choose to go ahead and jump or wait for fate's hand to push me over I know that the time is near and I'll meet it will excitement,wonder, and a bit of fear. That's what life is all about. You just never know what's around the corner, do you?

More Cowboys, horses and kids.

Browsing for more Cowboy Art I came across this site and this drawing. Check him out, his site is interesting.

Rememories

As I get ready to go to Washington to visit my children I keep remembering the last time I went and how magical it was. If you missed my story on the whales read here. One thing I didn't mention was that we visited Chief Seattle's Grave site. I couldn't get really close because there was a woman there meditating and we didn't want to disturb her but it was very cool to get to see where he is actually buried. (Native American History and Heritage is an interest of mine.)
Anyway, the trip last time was so perfect in so many ways, My DIL and I surprised my son as he didn't know I was coming, we saw the whales, I saw Chief Seattle's grave. Just good memories. This trip will be not so exciting but just as good. Any time is good I get to spend time with that granddaughter of mine! Hang on Haleigh, Grandma is coming soon!!!

Spring is Cold!

Ok, so technically it is not Spring yet, this morning Winter reminded us down here in the South that he's still around. Our morning walk turned out to be a little chilly and we had to dig out our heavy sweats and socks but it was quite refreshing. The wind proved to be too much on the road but we have a nice patch of woods behind our houses and a path worn down by deer hunters and so the trees buffered the wind and we felt only the bright warm sunshine with just a tiny bit of a nip. We got our two miles in.
I go in late this morning to work and I am working for someone else tomorrow so my weekend is full of work and the Dr. is out of town so business will be slow. We hate those days. But it does give you time to get in some paperwork.
There's a little girl today who is celebrating her ninth birthday. She doesn't know me and I don't know her now but I still feel her in my heart and the warmth of her body as I held her as a baby next to my me in the warm sunshine. If circumstances had of been different I might be sharing this day with her. Instead I hope somewhere in her being she feels a tiny bit of warmth and knows there is somebody who loves her very much. Life is unfair sometimes but you got to roll with flow, huh?

Spring Time is Pink

If you've never seen Cherry Trees in full bloom you don't know what you are missing. They take your breath away. Today is the start of the Cherry Blossom Festival in Macon. They are the same trees that are in D.C. and Macon boasts on having 300,000 of them. You know Spring is here when you witness them. Pictures are pretty of them but until you see the real thing, you just can't imagine their beauty.

People!

Working in Retail can be exhausting. I know I've said this before but it is true and today was a perfect example. Nobody can wait their turn, can't wait a week for their glasses, can't see out of their glasses, wants money back, YOU DO TAKE MY INSURANCE! and on and on and on. You come home and feel like you've been literally beat up. Just part of the job and things get better and people bring in brownies to thank you for being so nice and they come in and tell you how they love their glasses and all is well for a while and then BAM! You can do nothing right.
You learn not to take it personally and you learn to smile and be nice no matter how mean they are to you and like I said it is just part of it. But I got to tell you it ain't easy sometimes!
Ok, I'll stop moaning about that. The other news is my younger son, the policeman, bought himself a motorcycle. GREAT! Now I've got another thing to worry about. Thanks Matthew. He'll enjoy it though. I've ridden on the back of a motorcycle in my younger days enough to know the freedom you feel. I'm happy for him.
I have only a little over two weeks to go before I go on Vacation and get to see this motorcycle in person. I am so ready.
So, that's about all that is going on here. I get off a little early tomorrow afternoon and so that's a good thing. But I have to work all weekend, including Sunday. But I'll survive. Two and a half weeks, I'll be in the beautiful Pacific Northwest!!! YAY!

Back to Walking

Up until last summer my mother and I walked about two miles a day for at least five days a week. It got hot, we got busy, we made excuses and before you know it we were out of the habit. But the truth is I feel soooo much better when I am doing this and so this morning we started again. We are going to shoot for at least three days a week. This morning we walked a mile and a quarter, not a bad start. Man...could I tell I was out of shape, but adding a little bit of distance and speed everyday and we'll soon be back where we were.
I'd also forgotten how much more you get out of the walk than just physical exercise. It's good for the soul too. We live out in the country and we live on a paved road surrounded by woods. This morning we passed a creek where we saw two wild ducks taking a swim. We saw a huge nest build by some huge bird, maybe a buzzard. We smelled he sweetness of spring about to spring. It felt good to stretch those legs and take deep breaths! I challenge you! Get out and walk! You won't be sorry.
It is better if you have a partner, that way it easier to not find excuses because that other person is counting on you.
So I feel good this morning and ready to start my day!

Celebrating Dr. Seuss's Birthday

I meant to share this really cool site I found. It polarizes your pictures, gives them a border, you don't have to down load anything. This is a picture of my Grandchild I did. I like the look of it. Click here.

A bit of a Revelation

Ok, indulge me here for a moment. As I near my 50th birthday,(less than two months away)and while I'm in the midst of this "rite of passage" (perimenopause)I seem to be seeking the meaning of "me". Ok, ok, what I mean is, what am I here for? And as bad as it may seem to say this, (believe me I feel guilty) I've decided it is time for me to be .....selfish. There, I said it. It is no secret that women often live their whole lives trying to DO, trying to BE, trying to MAKE happiness for everyone else. And the revelation that I've come to or almost have come to, is that you simply cannot make everyone happy. I've said this, I've been told this, it is not a new statement to me, but I've never really bought into it. I've always tried to think that I could make everyone happy. And you know what, you can to a degree but guess who ends up feeling cheated? Guess who ends up NOT happy?
And so, that being said the gift I'm giving myself for my big birthday is to do what I want to do that makes me feel good. Selfish isn't it??
And now, one other little thing that I guess I've come to realize is this. When someone does something that would in the past upset me, guess what? I choose not to let it bother me, and not because I'm a nice person who turns the other cheek, I choose to not become upset for ME!
I don't want to be upset! (This is wisdom that apparently doesn't come to you until you near 50 years of age.)
And so I say "Bring it on!" I'm ready for whatever the rite of passage has to offer me. And I'm ready for the big 5-0 too. I'm going to be one Wise, Selfish, and Happy woman!

Restful Sunday

Wow, I accomplished very little today, but it was a nice restful day. I watched movies, and napped and the day was beautiful, nice temp, beautiful sunshine so my little dog and I took a nice walk in the woods.
Here's a cool site I found if you like music, especially oldies.
Hope you have a good coming week, I plan to!

On Daughter In Laws

Last week I had a patient come in that I know and she was telling me that she'd recently had to quit work to take care of her elderly parents. She sold her house and moved in with them but soon after, her son moved in too after he and his wife had separated and then soon after her other son left his wife and showed up with three children as well. WOW! The conversation led to daughter in laws. She said her sons had always been attracted to looney tune girls and they'd both married one. She said, "I wish they'd let ME pick out their next wives!"
WOW, I'd never ever say that! Not that I don't know about looney tune DIL's but who's to say I could do better.
Mother's of sons know all too well that it's not just men who can abuse their spouses, women can do a pretty good job mentally abusing men!
I have one son who sees himself with a certain kind of woman and he's so wrong and until he sees this I fear he will not find the right mate. The person he really really falls in love with might not really "look" like he thinks she will. He's working with this right now, going through a period of learning and realizing certain things and it's interesting watching him do this. He's realizing who his wife really is and that she may not be who he is suppose to be with even though for the last seven years he's thought so. I'm hoping when he decides he's done being Used, the right person comes along and knocks his socks off and she may not be drop dead gorgeous but she will be to him.
I have another DIL that I had a hard time accepting. She wasn't who I had pictured for my younger son. First of all they were TOO young. And he was graduating from high school, joining the Navy and getting married all at one time, it was too much for me to handle. But he was a man at eighteen and sure he was in love and so.....what's a mother to do? I had to trust his decision and hope for the best. And it has been best. They've had their ups and downs like all married couples but they are fine. And I love her and wouldn't trade her in for anybody else!
So NOPE, I would never pick my son's mates. I'd probably make a big big mess!
Before my older son got married I used to kid my younger son's wife and tell her she was my favorite DIL (she was my only one at that time.) But guess what Amy, you're still my favorite DIL and always will be. (And I'm not just saying that because you read my blog and she doesn't!)
For my older son and his wife I hope they can discover that they've tried but all they do is make each other miserable and they can move on. Sometimes that happens.

Back to Work

Well, my two days off did happen, although someone's child was ill one day, they worked it out for me, which I appreciate very much.
Today was pleasant. I have to work tomorrow but I'm off on Sunday.
Nothing much interesting going on, I have talked to J, my son, whom I've not heard from for a few weeks, but all is well, at least he is handling things.
I visited my mother a while yesterday, haven't spent any real time with her for awhile.
Some Drama going on between my girls at work, and I've got to deal with that, but not until Tuesday, so all is well in my world.
Tired tonight and I've got three movies from Netflix and that's what I'm doing tonight probably.
Happy Friday night to all!

Off for two days, I hope

When you work a retail job as I do, weekends aren't something you have a lot of and so the two days you get off are sometimes in the middle of the week. So, tomorrow's my weekend, sort of. I'm ready because I've worked seven days straight and I've missed some days off in the last few weeks because every one's been sick at the store and so...I am ready!
Today was pretty uneventful and boring. That's a good thing sometimes. I'm tired and am going to bed early I think. And I get to wake up whenever I wake up! YAY!

Just trying to Manage

When you work in an office with a small group of people, it's easy to get close to them and sometimes you know things about them that you don't know about your immediate family members. When you are the supervisor of this small group of people it gets hard if you have reason to do what our company calls a "developmental session" with one of them. Today I had to do that. This particular person is having a hard time performing somethings that are required of her and she is so tender hearted, I let it go much longer than I should have. Today was the day I had to do it.
She expected it as it has to do with quality of sales and she'd seen the report for the end of the month. She and I do talk about it every month but I've never sat down with her, written it all up and had her sign it. We set some goals and some training that will help her (I hope) and she took it all pretty well. I made it as positive as I could.
Mostly being a manager is no different from being a fellow human being, I just try to treat people as I would want them to treat me. I fail at this sometimes in the heat of a moment but I strive very hard. Managing people is the second hardest job I've ever done. The first was raising children and actually the two are not that different, are they?

Dreaming Again

Today is my Sunday to work. It's the end of our month at work and so I've got plenty of paperwork to do as I also do repairs on glasses. Don't usually sell too many glasses on Sunday as the Dr. of course doesn't work on Sundays but sometimes people bring in outside Rx's. Usually I have plenty of time to close out the month and so forth. A quiet day.
I'm obsessed at the moment with Cowboy Art and Horse Art. I'd love to own a cabin out in the middle of nowhere and I'd collect this kind of art. I'm dreaming this morning as you can tell. So I'll just tuck the dream away in this Cedar Chest and maybe I'll bring it out one day, you never know.
Anyhow.........hope you have a relaxing Sunday and a good coming week.

A Total Eclipse of the Moon

AS I was driving home tonight, something caught my eye in the sky. It looked like a tiny sliver of light and then lo and behold I realized what I was seeing. It was a spectacular show.

Rough Night

Really bad weather last night, surrounded by tornadoes touching down around in almost every county surrounding me. Lots of damage and people dead or hurt. I slept with one eye open and am glad that night is over.
Today the sun is shining as if nothing happened but my heart goes out to all those that were hit.
I go in late today and close. Usually I do that on Tuesday but schedule is a little different this week. So......I'm in for a long day.
Anyway, hope everyone has a nice Friday.

Just had to share this pic of my best friend's Beagle, Dory, and her favorite position on their couch.

It's a Fat World After All!!!

Today while I ate lunch I had bought the newest Weight Watcher's magazine to read while I ate, and I came across this article about Global Obesity. Remember how we were told to clean our plates because there were starving children in China that would be happy to get that food?? Well.......those kids are now almost 30% overweight! AND......guess what?? French women ARE getting fat! In 1979 there was one Mcdonald's in France. Today, over 1000. (So, it's our fault!) Those Chinese people used to use bikes as their main means of transportation, of course now they have more cars. And get this, In Britain one household in four no longer even owns a dining room table to have meals, they eat in front of the TV. So, even though we are leading the pack in obesity here in the USA at 74% of the population being overweight, the rest of the world is close behind.
So there you have it. Global Warming may not destroy us at all, it could be we just eat ourselves to death and explode! Sad, indeed.

Tonight for a moment I thought I heard coyotes. We used to hear them a lot but after the lumber company cut the woods behind me I seldom hear them and I miss that.
We once lived in a house with a corn field along side of it and the coyotes would move through it sometimes at night. Once my son and I heard a baby coyote crying and we peeked out my bedroom window and under the light of the full moon we got to see his Mama call for him. It was amazing to us, she'd call and he'd cry out and she'd call again, he was lost but finally we saw him scamper up along side of her and they ran off. My son was only three or four at the time but he remembers it still. A moment in nature that I'm glad we got to see.

Looking Back

It's Wednesday and here's some things I've learned since last Wednesday.

I LOVE Google Image Search.

Wanting to eat ice all the time could be a sign you're anemic.

You can actually grow Kewis in the area where I live.

Night time cold medicines produce really wild dreams!

Sick and Sicker

I could have easily stayed home sick today but one of my associates is much sicker than me so I sent her home. Bless her heart, she is sick with this stupid cold that has gone round and round in our store, her year old baby is sick also and doesn't sleep at night, so she is worn out. Been there, done that, so as for me, I'm on the upside, the Zicam really does keep the cold from being as bad as it can be but this is a wicked cold and it makes you feel really bad, but my congestion is nothing compared to the other girl's.
We stayed busy all day and that helps too when you don't feel all that great, makes the day go by much faster.
So, that was my Wednesday, pretty uneventful.

Smart Kid

Ok, when I was a kid and I started losing teeth I couldn't wait until night fall to put that tooth under the pillow. My little namesake is a little different. She lost her first tooth a few months back but instead of putting it under her pillow she asked her mom if she could just save it and take it for "show and tell". Her mother, rather doubtful that anyone would want to see the tooth agreed. She never took it though and when she lost her second tooth, she asked to keep it too. Her mother explained to her that if she'd put it under her pillow the Tooth Fairy would come and leave her money for it. No, she just wanted it put in the little box where she'd stored the first one. At this point she has lost four teeth and has of yet to leave one under the pillow. I have a theory she is waiting to make sure new ones really do come in.......lol. She doesn't want to sell those until she makes sure she's not going to need them. Or maybe she is going to put them all under the pillow at once for a big pay out! Whatever she is thinking, it is funny to me. Who knows what goes on in that sharp little mind!

Ah, Ah, Choo!

That's all I seem to be able to do lately. Yesterday I made it through the work day, left a little early and sneezed and blowed my nose until it is raw but I feel a little better today, hopefully the worst is over and I'm off today instead of my usual Wednesday, so I can get over it a little more.
I caught the special on TV last night on Oprah's opening her school and I can't get those little girls out of my mind. Through such bad times, many of them, they all still found hope in life and such strength, my goodness! I'm sorry but comparing them to the spoiled little American girls here that I encounter day to day, we come up a little short. I know we want to give our kids all we can and I'm thankful we live in a country where that is possible for some people but we are getting material things all mixed up with the gifts we need to be giving. I'm pretty sure a cell phone, an ipod, jewelry and designer clothes are not going to give them strength to face life's problems.
And on that note I recently was so proud of my son. He and his wife bought a new vehicle and an option was a DVD player for the backseat which his daughter would have loved but instead he wanted her to look out the window, look at the world, she gets enough TV and DVD's at home. I liked that and agree completely. I think as parents we've gotten into the habit of doing what's easiest, maybe we're lazy but I am so afraid it's going to bite us in the behind. I know that when both parents have to work and juggle a family it is hard not to let the TV babysit and it's easy to just buy the kid what they want, but in the end what are we teaching these kids?
Oh, well. I know the problems but know not of solutions so I'll hush for now.

Who is that person?

I was looking at some vacation pictures and noticed the other people that I don't know visiting the same place that day that got in our pics and I wonder if I'm in some body's vacation pictures and if they ever look at me and wonder who I am and what my story is. Funny.

Curiosity and the Monkey

Oops, no post yesterday. Well, it was a pretty uneventful day. I worked, business slow, a calm day, an easy day. But this morning I woke up with a cold! I believe in Zicam so I'm starting that and hopefully it will help.(Although I just read an article on Zicam being under attack here.) I've not had a cold in I don't know how long and there's still a chance maybe it's just sinus, but it feels like a cold.
I've taken a real liking and I can't really explain the attraction to "Curious George" and I watched the cartoon movie of it last night. Will Ferrell is the man in the Yellow Hat, Drew Barrymore his love interest. But I adore George. I don't know why. He's cute and well.........curious!
And the weather is stormy today, so I think I will just take it easy and not do too much and hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow. Happy Sunday to you all!

Everyone's a Comedian!

OK, here's my horoscope for today.


Communication with others might be difficult today, Robbin. Everyone around you could be in a rather fuzzy state of mind, with ideas very clear in their heads but no words to explain them. Letters and phone messages seem cryptic. Weird rumors and gossip could reach your ears. You may need to repeat just about everything you say at least once in order to make yourself understood. This should pass by tomorrow - so don't let it drive you crazy!

This one cracked me up so I couldn't wait to share it with my co-workers. They took great pleasure all day long by answering everything I said to them with a "huh?" or a "what did you say?" Of course I fell for it everytime and repeated myself serveral times before I'd realize they were pulling my chain! Very funny! Made for a very interesting day and the patients probably really wondered about us. I love it when you spend the day of work filled with the sound of laughter. (Even at my expense!)

Just Because.......

I got flowers today at work from my eldest son. And the reason? Just because. Of course there's some history connected to it and we've been through a lot the last few months and it was his way of telling me he thanks me for being there for him. Coming from this son, it's a HUGE statement and one that makes me smile and gives me hope that he's on his way to finding happiness in life. That's all I have ever wanted for him. That's all any mother wants. The flowers mean more than he can know, or maybe he does know. Either way, my mother's heart is swelled with pride and I am so thankful for both my sons. We fought many battles to just survive and it looks like all three of us just might do that.

  My son's dog,Buddy, enjoying a day at the beach.

I got a Raise

And a pretty darn good one too!

Thinking Back

Here's what I've learned since last Wednesday.

I don't like Quiznos.

If the paper shredder says 5 sheets, it means it!

Creamy Dijon Mustard is as good to me as mayo and a lot less calories.

People read things into your actions that are completely WRong!

Sometimes the world is just a little off axis and there's nothing you can do about it.

Seeking Mayberry

I'm not quite sure why I can't resist an episode of the Andy Griffith Show. It brings me comfort somehow, it makes me smile. There's always a lesson learned and a happy ending. I know I'm not alone in this, there is a whole cult out there, far more obsessed than me. Funny, in a world where you can see almost anything on the T.V., we still seek the comfort of this simple little tale of a good man in a small town trying to raise his son the best he can. Makes you wonder, doesn't it?

Wednesday Ramblings

Ok, so it's my day off but I do have to go and meet my boss for the review. That should last just an hour or so, I think. She has to meet another manager in another town so she's on a tight schedule. I'm making coffee now, waking up slowly and watching one of the morning shows. News full of Brit and Anna Nicole and nothing much else.

Cloudy here today, with some rain in the forecast I think. A good day to stay home but not gonna happen. I've not felt so good this week, but am feeling a little better today. It's the pre menopausal thing, fatigue, fuzzy brain (worse than usual)a few hot flashes, hurting joints. Just ikky feeling. Just part of the journey. I don't like it a bit. But hey! "I am WOMAN!" hear me moan, er, I mean roar!

Ah, here's a segment now on the morning show on Mother Daughter Relationships. I should listen, something is going on between me and my mother at the moment that I don't' even get. I've got to work on that, it's getting really weird. The older she gets the weirder things get between us. Who knows!

Ok, enough rambling. I'm off to cook myself some breakfast and then get ready to go meet my boss and get this over with. Happy Wednesday to you!

There are days when I'd like to run with the wind. Today was one of those days.

Review Time

My company does manager's reviews the same time every year for us all. Mine is tomorrow and though it is usually painless and includes a modest little raise in salary, it still makes me nervous. My boss is someone I've worked with for almost 13 years and I know her pretty well but still I hate it! Something about sitting there and having someone review your performance and set new goals, I don't know, I just don't like it. Plus it ruins my day off as she is coming tomorrow. Which is my day off! I'll be glad when it's over.
So anyway, that's what's up with me this week. Nothing more interesting than that.
We shall see how it goes.

Feelings

My feelings are very tender and sometimes things that should hurt my feelings don't and silly things will. Today a silly thing hurt my feelings but I never want the person to know so I usually just duck out until my tears stop and they never know.
Silly I know, but just me. It's the way I've always been.
The weather is beautiful today, warm and sunshine but still a bit nippy, but Spring won't be too far off now. I'm ready for warmth.
Hope you had a good Monday.

Practising my Haiku

Your life seems playful
but such wisdom you unfold
in your eyes of old.

The Secret

For months now I've run into The Secret. The marketing on this thing has been good. I'd read about it on forums, on blogs, just about everywhere. I would have bought it on the Internet months ago if I didn't have dial-up and could have actually watched it on my computer but finally I broke down and bought the book. Last week it was featured on Oprah I think and so Wal-Mart has it and in my town that's the only place you can buy a book. So I am into it. It is really something to think about, this secret of the universe. Based on the laws of attraction, the concept being things we think of are what attracts us. If that's bad things, that's what we get, if it's good things that's what we get. Whether you believe in the Universe or God, it works both ways. Their are quotes from the bible there as well as the great masters of the world. It's very interesting.
You know how you can just look into some people's eyes and see peacefulness? I think that's what we all crave, peacefulness and contentment with who we are and what we have. That's my goal.

I don't want to!

I DON'T WANT TO GO TO WORK TODAY!
I DON'T WANT TO GO TO WORK TODAY!
I DON'T WANT TO GO TO WORK TODAY!

Did I mention, I don't want to go to work today?

She's Got a Ticket to Ride!

Ok, really to fly but YAY! It's official, I have my airline ticket to go to Washington in April. I can't wait to see this little face and to feel her arms around my neck.

Good Service needs to be reported too!

Today being the manager of a retail Optical store was not what I wanted to be. Complaints, complaints, complaints. First from the Doctor, then from customers, associates too pushy, too rude, not helpful, yada, yada, yada! Customer service is a big issue with me. I insist that my employees be nice, it has to show in their face, in their voice and in their actions but sometimes I think customers are just over sensitive. But then you never know. I can't be there all the time and I don't know what happens when I'm not but I'm tired! People sometimes expect too much or they are mad with someone else and they take it out on us. It gets hard!

Toward the end of the day a customer came up to me and told me that one of my associates was the sweetest person she'd ever met and a joy! Good timing, I needed to hear that one. She told me this right in front of the associate and I thanked her and gave her a card and asked her to call our customer service and tell them. If she'll do that my associate will be recognized for it but you know what? Hardly anyone will take the time to do that. They are quick to report bad service but not good service.

Because I know this I really try hard to contact a company when I receive what I believe to be excellent service. I try to get a name so that the person will get personal recognition for it. It helps morale, motivates the other associates and helps counter act those complaints we get when all we are really trying to do is help!

If you believe you're getting bad service, by all means complain! But just for me, please remember to let somebody know if you get good service too. It means more than you can know to those of us who serve the public.

Apparently when my grand dog wants on the couch it doesn't matter that his Daddy is already there.

Thinking Back

Since last Wednesday, these are the things I've learned:

It's not impossible to eat a salad with a spoon but it's not easy.

Throw away those panties with the bad elastic the very moment you take them off. DO NOT put them in the dirty clothes!

Don't eat food that doesn't taste delicious to you, even if it is healthy.

Sometimes when you're in a blue mood you just have to ride it out, you can't always pretend you're fine.

If you made a mistake, take the consequences like a woman and without tears. You'll respect yourself later.

My First Valentine

Every Valentine's Day I have a special memory of my father. I don't have that many special memories of him and maybe that is why this one sticks with me. It's not that he was a bad man, just a sick man. Plagued with mental illness, life with him was never easy. As a child, I walked on egg shells not to disturb him or set him off. Holidays were bad for us, at least the big ones. I hardly remember a Christmas that he didn't sink into depression or start some crap about nothing. The same with Thanksgiving and even our birthdays. But I won’t go into all that , I survived and there are kids that go through a lot worse in life than just having ruined holidays.

Ironically every Valentine's Day, without fail, he came home with two hearts of chocolate. One was big and red and was my mother's. The other one was a little smaller and pink and was for me. I saved every box long after the candy was gone. Those boxes are gone now. When my parents divorced, my mother and I had to leave in the night and didn't get to take much with us. But sometimes I wish I'd thought to take at least one of those boxes them with me. It would be perhaps physical proof that at least one day out of the year he fought off the darkness in his life and could show his love to me.

Happy Valentine's Day Daddy, wherever your spirit is. I know you really loved me and I loved you even when it was hard. You were my first Valentine and you are always in my heart.

Clouds

I felt it sinking in yesterday, this blue funk of mine. No reason really for it, just something that happens and something I've learned to ride through but still I don't have to like it. A person who usually thinks positively about everybody and everything, this funk gives me mean thoughts that aren't natural to me. My nerves are on edge and everything bothers me. If I didn't have to work, I'd crawl into a hole and come out tomorrow or the next day or how ever long it lasts. Instead I'll acknowledge its presence and forge onward and ride it out the best I can. But I don't HAVE to like it!

Back in Time

I was surprised when one of the things my son had planned for us to do this weekend was to go to a Drive-In Theater. Wow! That's a blast from the past. I'd not been to one since I was 16 years old and didn't know there was one in the state of Georgia. Well there is. It's in a little town called Jesup. My son was very curious as he'd never been to one, couldn't imagine it really. It was so fun. But here's a bit of technology that's changed. I took great pride in explaining to him how he had to park close to a post, how to get the speaker and hook it on the window. And then he overheard someone asking what station to put his radio on and Lo and Behold, we can pick up the sound digitally on the radio. So the speaker goes back out so we don't have cold air coming in through the cracked window. Ummm, ok then, everything changes I guess. It was fun to watch him experience something new that had been a part of my life so many years ago.

A Perfect Weekend

I wanted, needed really, to visit my son to see for myself how he was really doing since he'd left and went back to his wife. I know he's made the decision for now to not take meds for the depression that has plagued him for some time now and that worries me. I was afraid this happiness he feels now is only another manic episode filled with grandiose ideas and plans and a lot of big talk.
What I saw is a man who is finally being honest with himself, a man who has been through a journey of darkness and is emerging a better person, a stronger person and a much gentler person. So, if the last six months helped him though this and this is the results, it was definitely worth it. Having a relationship with me is a plus. Finally getting to know me for who I am instead of through someone else's eyes has certainly helped and I can't help but think this is a positive force for him. Time will tell if he can cope with the ups and downs of life. Time will tell if he can fight depression without meds. But for now all is well, and we'll make the most of it.
So, our weekend was great. He and I had the weekend alone. His wife had left to visit her parents for the weekend. We went to a Drive-In Theater, we walked the beach and we talked and talked and just enjoyed being with each other.
I'm off today and back to work tommorrow. Bummer! I'd rather be leaving this afternoon to visit my other son. I miss him, but that won't be until April.
And so, today I will do some chores around here and relax and get ready for a new week at work. I'm tired of working. Wish I didn't have to. But oh well, enough whining for now. Hope your weekend was a good one and your new week is starting off good.

Neptune

At a junk store on the side walk was this drawing, it seemed to be out of chalk but I'm not sure, it was permanant and it is of Neptune the God of the Sea I'm thinking, anyway, it looks three demensional, it was great. It was in a little town called Woodbine, Ga. Click on it to see it better. The store was closed so we couldn't find out more and the artist didn't even sign it. But it was really cool.

Also the sign at this Junk/Antique shop advertised in a very unique way.

Some of us live a life full of love and happiness and very few problems, some of us search constantly for love and never seem to find it. Either way we are all fighting our own battles and no matter what happens to us, we all deserve some respect after the battle is over. Just let her rest in peace, please. My heart breaks for her little daughter.

Sweetie gets a Valentine

This is my dog Sweetie and though it's not a good pic, she is sporting her brand new collar with pink hearts on it.
She and I are leaving for our little mini get-away right after I get off from work tomorrow. The weather is going to be nice though a little overcast, the day temps are going to be close to 70 degrees. We can live with that. So, I wish you all a very lovely weekend and I'll be back on Sunday afternoon.

Two Days to Go and I'm there!

Wonderfully free

Dancing and singing with joy

Waves kiss my ankles

From: Beach Haikus by Cheryl Williams

Thinking Back

Things I've learned this week:

Don't buy a can of mixed nuts if you're just going to pick out the almonds and cashews.

Don't assume no news is good news.

Don't idolize Women Astronaunts.

Don't try to read a book you are not enjoying.

Brad who????

I work with a girl that just amazes me. What amazes me is how much she isn't aware of. I've worked with her for over five years and little by little I've learned things about her that she just doesn't know. First of all let me say she is not dumb. She is in fact quite intelligent as far as learning her job and she is quite good at it. She is a single mom with two children, she has almost graduated college, she's worked her way through for a long time, she is almost thirty years old now and her life hasn't always been an easy one. She is usually a happy person. She was born and raised here in our little town and hasn't ventured out of this town too much in her lifetime. Now, all that said, here's a few examples of what I'm talking about. One day the girls and I were talking about Brad Pitt. She asks us who he is....we all laughed at her and I thought ok, well, not everybody I guess keeps up with movie stars but Brad Pitt? I couldn't believe she had never heard of him.
We have a little break room and one day I was preparing my lunch and I was baking a potato in our microwave. She happened to see me and said, "You mean you can bake a potato in the microwave?" Dah....yeah! I was talking one day about Canadian Bacon and you got it, she didn't know what that was. I finally got her to understand what that was by telling her it was the meat on an MC Donald's Egg McMuffin. "Oh, she says, I thought that was just ham."
She never tries anything new to eat that she isn't familiar with. Some of these things are yogurt, avocados, and until recently had never tasted coffee.
Forget talking about current events with her or politics. She doesn't read much, except her text books or the bible.

I kid her all the time about her head being buried in the sand and she just laughs but I guess her thoughts are probably on important things like making a living and taking care of her children and getting her degree. Her heart is made of pure gold and we all love her but goodness! I don't know how she can live in our world and not know some of these things but that's who she is and we'll keep her!

A Special Group wants ME!

Ok, up until now I've not said anything about this but since I guess I can't pretend anymore or ignore it here's my confession. For the last month or so I've been getting letters from AARP. Yes, I know in May I will turn 50 but AARP is for,well, elderly people, right? I mean I thought you had to be sixty five or something, but lo and behold there it was right on the letter, "serves the needs and interests of people 50+". Alrighty then. I can become an AARP member. Joy, Joy! I can get special discounts now. I can join the ranks with (according to Wikipedia) 35 million other people. And what's more as us baby boomers keep on booming there will be 70 million of us by 2015.
Will I join AARP in May? Sure! I can go for some discounts and anyway I'm in good company. I will stand tall and be proud I made it this far. I am a grown-up now! Youth is grand but there's a lot to be said about "maturity". (I'll share more on that as I discover it, just kidding!).
Anyway, at first it's a shock when you start getting those letters but after a while you realize how lucky you are your name is on the envelope and not a headstone and there's something to be happy about.

Taco Soup Talk and Work

I had supper with my parents last night and my mom had cooked Taco Soup. It was really good, here's the recipe if you're interested. I think she probably used ground turkey or really lean ground beef and low fat cheese and sour cream to cut down the calories. It's from a Paula Dean cook book I think. And we used baked chips to serve it over so that helped. It was yummy, something different. I liked it. Good for the crock pot too.

We had a very busy day today and I'm tired. The person I used to be married to would make fun of me when I'd come home from work and say I was tired. In his mind, if you worked inside and waited on customers all day what could possibly make you tired??? Working with the public is tiring. You are an ambassador for your company, you are a problem solver, you have to know your product and you have to do this all with a smile at all times. It ain't always easy. Most days I love my job and managing the employees is the hardest part of my job. After 35 years of retail experience I pretty much got the customer service part down pat. My point is that you don't have to be doing physical labor to get tired at work. He'd really piss me off when he'd laugh at me when I came home tired. Just one of the reason's why he is the man I "used" to be married to. Anyway..........I'm off to bed soon, hope your day was a good one.

Alone with myself
The trees bend to caress me
The shade hugs my heart
- Candy Polgar

Omar Sharif

Here's what he looked like in the movie, Funny Girl. I loved him in Doctor Zhivago, one of my all time favorites. You got to give Barbra credit, she had great looking leading men.

Funny Girl

My second Barbra movie tonight, Funny Girl. Barbra was in her twenties in this movie, and once again, it ends without a happy ever after.....dang it! Did she ever make a movie with a happy ending? The leading man this time was Omar Sharif, umm. In this movie she plays the character of Fanny Brice who was a real person. She was a comedienne and had a very successful career with the Ziegfeld Follies. Barbra had also played her earlier on Broadway. Anyway, I really enjoyed it and I'm not sure I ever saw it before.
That's all I have of Barbra for now. Maybe "The Way We Were" next weekend, we'll see.

Kris

This one still doesn't show how really blue his eyes are, you'll have to get the movie to see that. He's 70 now and still looks pretty darn good.

A Star Is Born

This is what I stayed up half the night to see. I'm doing a Barbra Streisand marathon this weekend. My Gosh, I had forgotten how beautiful Kris Kristoferson was....my goodness. I haven't seen this movie since it first came out in 1976 and it was better than I remembered. Of course a tear jerker too but sometimes you just need a good cry and a good love story does it for me. Tomorrow night it's Funny Girl. I can't remember a thing about it. Ok, I really got to sleep now! But first I'm going to try and find a picture of Kris to show you just how beautiful he was in this movie.

Just Dreamin'

I just finished my taxes. I like TaxAct, I've used it for the last few years and you can e-file and have your money ,if you're due any, in the bank usually in two weeks. How easy is that? So now I have extra money coming to me and I get to spend it in my head a thousand times, a thousand different ways but mostly what it is going to buy is an Airline ticket to see my grandchild. I can't go until April but I'm counting the days.

Next weekend I'm going to St. Simon's Island to visit my elder son. We might go to Cumberland Island and see the wild ponies there. I'd like that a lot. Or we might just walk the beach, either way it will be nice to get away or a while.

And so that's what I'm doing today, dreaming of going somewhere. Dreamin my life away. Dream, Dream, Dream, all I ever do is Dreaaaam.

Banana Fanna.......

I'm not much on Smoothies, I've tried a few and they don't do much for me but this morning this recipe was sent in a newsletter I get every week and I may try it. Sounds yummy.

Thick & Creamy Banana Caramel Smoothie


(1 smoothie: 130 calories, 1.5g fat, 220mg sodium, 27g carbs, 1.5g fiber, 7g sugars, 3g protein = 2 Points)



So smooth, creamy and delicious, it's frightening!



Ingredients:

1/2 small banana

2 oz. 8th Continent Light Vanilla Soymilk (or another light vanilla soymilk**)

1 cup crushed ice

3 packets SPLENDA

1 JELL-O Sugar Free Pudding Snack, Dulce de Leche or Creamy Caramel

*Optional: Cool Whip Free and banana slice; for topping



Directions:

Combine all ingredients in a blender. Blend on high until smooth. Pour into a glass, and (if desired) top with fat-free whipped cream and banana slice. Enjoy!

Monkeying Around

I "borrowed" this from my DIL's My Space Page because bless her heart, she doesn't always remember to send me pics, ahem. It's ok Amy, you do good. But this one cracked me up and I had to share it, couldn't wait for you to send it to me.