I just wanted to let everyone know I am still in a bit of a daze and my heart is broken in two. I can't say I am ok yet because I am not and I will not be for sometime. I will have to deal with it in my own way and take it one day at a time. But I wanted to let everyone know I've read the comments and appreciated each and everyone and that I will be back to blogging. It is something I love and I consider my readers my true friends as we share each other lives, good and bad.
When something like this happens, you really find out how good people are. We've had so many calls, so much food, so many cards. Things are starting to quiet down now and me and my family are dealing with our grief as best we can.
Jonathan suffered depression for a long time, he was in more pain than most people ever have to deal with on a daily basis. He never really thought he deserved anyone's love but I hope he saw all the people whose lives he'd touched in a postive way. I am no longer carrying his pain, like I've done for the last ten years, for it is gone and I know he is at peace. The pain I have now is my own, for the loss of a very special person that I was honored to have been his mother for the last 30 years.
I love you all and I'll be back soon. I'll need you guys to get through the process, and I know you'll be there to listen to me.
P.S. A special thanks to Aisling and Chellie, you both know I love you. And to my beautiful daughter in law who posted when I couldn't, I know it wasn't easy for her but she did it beautifully with love and grace.