Sunday, June 15, 2008

I'm Ready, I Hope

When I left work to go on medical leave back on April 19th, I had no idea what I was in store for during the following two months.
I thought I'd have a hysterectomy, have a nice 6 week rest and return and things would go on as usual. Boy was I wrong!
The person who will show up at work tomorrow is not the same person who left for sure. It just goes to show you that in blink of an eye, things can change.
As weird as this sounds, and you know my thoughts can go that way sometimes, losing my uterus and my son exactly a month apart have a connection. I will not miss that womb, as it was causing me lots of problems and it was sick but it was where my first born started and grew, it was there he lived right under my heart for nine months. It was there where his little heart beat and there where he'd kick so hard, you could actually see those kicks if you watched. His father and I would laugh because once he got going, he'd kick and kick. That womb did a good job keeping him safe and healthy until he made his appearance into this old world.
So, tomorrow I go back to my life as a very different person. I've lost but I've found out a lot about myself, I've found strength I never thought I had. And I go back with the reminder of how precious time is and how your life can change in the blink of an eye.
But I'm ready to go back. It is time. I need some sort of routine again and I need to be out and about in the world, or at least this part of the world. And I know whatever I must face with my health, I can do it!

2 comments:

Sage said...

Loving thoughts will be surrounding you as you go back to work tomorrow. Be strong. You can do it. I can pray for you during the day as I sit beside my mom's bed while she sleeps. Lots of prayer time!

Blessings,
Marge

Robbin with 2 B's! said...

Thank you Marge for the encouragment and my prayers throughout my day for you and your mom too.